Interpret:

Alanis Morissette

Album:

Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie

you hadn’t seen your father in such a long time
 he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
 your mother never left the house
 she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her


you reminded her so much of your father
 so you were banished and you wonder why you’re so hypersensitive
 and why you can’t trust anyone but us
 but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
 she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me


I don’t know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
 I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
 who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
 not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour


how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
 I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
 it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
 we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood


I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
 he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don’t know
 I’ve got a loving supportive wife who doesn’t know how involved she should get
 you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?


just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind’s eye
 I remember how they would creak loudly
 she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
 I was only trying to be the best big brother I could


I’ve walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
 sometimes indignant sometimes raw
 can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
 it feels like highway robbery
 and sometimes it’s peanuts
 I wish it could last a couple more hours


so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
 you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you’re not relinquishing your majestry
 you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
 and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life